Questioning and Losing My Faith and Myself

 

And I need a stable foundation to call home.

What we need most when the foundations of our childhood, belief systems and core principles have been shaken to the point that they can no longer support us anymore - is understanding (knowledge).

One would imagine that another belief system would be the way to go, but contrary to that idea lie’s the betrayal, heartache, despair and disbelief with that kind of loss.

The transition away from a religious ideology and belief system can be devastating to any human, with the experience akin to the life-force being sucked out of them, or a personal disorientation away from what matters. This cannot be helped, but what can make the difference, is learning to recognize it, understand the process and why it is happening.

It is crucial to realize that nothing is wrong, although it feels as if the floor has fallen away and you are expected to fly with wings, which you do not know that you have. The best analogy that suits this experience is this:

If your beliefs and religion, your spirituality and the foundation that you have built your life upon is shaken to its core, it is because that square that you once called ‘home’ is now receiving an expansion outside its borders.

To put it simply, your square of beliefs is expanding and extending all around you and that extension feels like it is threatening the inner square. The experience of this transition happens all the time but it is how it happens that determines the most impact. Sometimes, a human being feels the urge to grow and evolve and their beliefs are a limitation, and they struggle internally until they decide to leave their school/church/mosque/temple/society or synagogue etc.

[See the yellow square numbered 270 as your example of what is possible]

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There is a whole wide world of beliefs to choose from (all the colour squares above), and those that we are born with, are sufficient enough to guide us through life . . . if we do not question or seek other answers.

Sometimes, a world event nudges a human being to move outside their square of beliefs, or an experience which cannot be explained by their beliefs occurs, and they need to seek elsewhere for answers.

There are times when a leader falls from grace and prompts the dissolution of - a part of - or the entire group. Whatever the reason for the change in the boundaries of any human’s personal beliefs . . . maybe an encounter with a non terrestrial would do this . . . it takes courage.

Epiphanies, revelations, a-ha moments and many events internal or external bring in change and it is voluntary. It may not seem voluntary to the conscious mind but to the higher (soul and spirit aspect) - it is voluntary.

The immediate and necessary knowledge, that a human being needs to know, is that this change is an expansion into unknown territory. Our beliefs hold our consciousness for our survival, and allow us to function in a positive manner. When our beliefs no longer serve us, our destiny or our evolution . . . change is prompted. It can feel like our world is falling away or it can feel like a liberation . . . in the end, it is a liberation. Our experience of this transition depends upon how cemented we were within the square of our beliefs.

The world is going through this on a mass scale, and humans are experiencing this in so many different ways, from the devastating to the welcoming, from the bewildering to the breathtaking, from the mind-numbing to the revelatory!

The difference between all these options . . .

. . . The ability to go with the flow.

The ability to let go and trust.

The ability to release and surrender our outdated beliefs.

What needs to be realized is that no one is losing anything. That which your religion or beliefs have held, those which can be distilled into pure teachings, essence or life-affirming truths – moves within you regardless of the new environment of beliefs. If it is pure – it goes with you. You have the capacity to learn about anything under the sun . . . and not feel that your beliefs are under threat, because everything under the sun and beyond that even, was created by the same Source.

Expansion – simply put – means that you have to lose yourself to find yourself again. The self that you feel you have lost is simply a boundary called beliefs that is attached to an external source, and the self that you gain, is the expanded self that has a new boundary of beliefs, and a direct inner relationship with the Source.

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