Addictive Friend

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24/03/2018

LEAN ON ME

Crutch Pledge
"I will be there so that you can lean upon me,
I will help you to forget the days of your splendour,
And I will take the burden from your weary limbs,
So that I am all that you need or want."

"For I am the crutch that you turned to when you could not cope and I found my way insidiously into your field of hope. I offered you my services and made sure that they could not come at a better time. I saw that once you had a hold of me, you could not let me go and I felt wanted and needed.
In fact, I felt so needed that I knew that we were inseparable and that you would rather die than be without me. I made sure that I never let you down and when all else failed, I could at least help you to forget the pain, trauma, heartache and loneliness.
I became your only friend and in those dark days, I fed your every need by diminishing all your needs into one crucial one - me!

With me, you no longer needed to take care of yourself because I did not care about your beauty. With me, you no longer needed to make an effort with friends or family because I did not care about your feelings. With me, you no longer needed to eat a balanced meal because I did not care about your health. And with me, you no longer needed to earn a living because I did not care about dignity. 
I made it simple.
I made it easy.
You knew where you stood with me.
You knew that I was not complicated.
You knew that this was a one way street and as you did not want to take responsibility, for your life . . . your pain . . . your emotions . . . your body . . . your guilt and your despair,
I helped you to forget all of them. 
You knew . . .
I would always be at your service" -

Regards 
Your Addiction
xoxo

- Jaylee Balch -

Comments

  1. Unknown25 March 2018 at 15:59

    Beautiful - Empower yourself to go Beyond!!

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  2. JLB26 March 2018 at 01:39

    I broke my leg when I was young, and when they took the cast off, the muscles had atrophied. This post reminds me of that, how you can have a strong support, but at the same time, if not careful, it can wither your own strength.

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